renewal

Shine in Service

January 3, 2021 — Leave a comment

For what we preach is not ourselves, but Jesus Christ as Lord, and ourselves as your servants for Jesus’ sake. For God, who said, ‘Let light shine out of darkness,’ made his light shine in our hearts to give us the light of the knowledge of God’s glory displayed in the face of Christ. But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body.

2 Corinthians 4:5-10

2020 was a necessary year that showed us our own darkness and our capacity for light. I carry into 2021 the bruises, the breakdowns and the blessings of this past year. The lessons of exhaustion and helplessness are in my body. The feelings and visions of rage and injustice are in my bones. The promises of hope and renewal flow in my blood. Nothing is wasted. Nothing is by accident. We may be foolish and unwise, yet in God’s grace, even those things he can turn into treasures that light the way for a better tomorrow.

My prayer for 2021 is to choose vulnerability and kindness over natural inclinations to defend and shut down. I want to harness the power that is in me, in all of us, through the power of Jesus, for the sake of others. That is the ONLY use of that power. To be a vessel of God’s power is to be a light for the world. Shine my friends. When you sense Jesus’ death in your body, and it leads you to break when you see injustice, pain and suffering in the world, let that stir you into generosity, faithful action and brave connections. When you sense Jesus’ resurrection in your body, and it leads you to see how the pieces do come together and hope does have the last word, let that stir you to share that joy and peace. May we carry the depths of heartache and heights of hope in our body, minds and souls. May we be the #church that blesses the nation, not through super spreader rule-breaking worship concerts, but by being a light in service of others.

  1. What would it look like for you to shine in service of your community?
  2. Who dims that light? You? Loved ones? What does it look like to protect yourself from their shade?
  3. If today you were to choose kindness and vulnerability over the need to right and the need to look cool, what relationships would you work on? What projects? What purpose would you go after?

Do you have a word for the year? I’d love to hear it! xx

Monday Map: Breaking Generational Chains

July 6, 2020 — Leave a comment

On the evening of that day, the first day of the week, the doors being locked where the disciples were for fear of the Jews, Jesus came and stood among them and said to them, ‘Peace be with you.’ When he had said this, he showed them his hands and his side. Then the disciples were glad when they saw the Lord. Jesus said to them again, ‘Peace be with you. As the father has sent me, even so I am sending you.’ And when he had said this, he breathed on them, and said to them, ‘Receive the Holy Spirit. If you forgive the sins of any, they are forgiven them; if you withhold forgiveness from any, it is withheld.’

John 20:19-23

Jesus was humiliated, tortured and killed. His resurrected body still held the scars and trauma of what he endured. Yet his words to his disciples after he showed his ultimate power was on repentance and forgiveness. In preaching this new way not only in his words, but by being the example of hope and renewal, he makes me believe that chains can be broken, stories can pivot and indeed, God will make all things new.

Breaking generational pain & trauma is a spiritual heavenly task. It requires the strength to face the wrong that has been passed down and in our body and mind. It requires the courage to see those we love and hate for who they are — humans that have become instruments of pain because of evil systems. It requires sacrifice because it involves forgiveness, but know that this kind of vulnerability lays bricks to a road for those who come after us. It requires faith to believe that God, too, desires and roots in hope.

In the midst of a global unveiling and purging, I hope that we map out a better way, for ourselves and for everyone who comes in contact with us.

  • What pain has affected your ability to trust?
  • What does trust feel and look like?
  • Give yourself permission to be enraged and justified in your anger.
  • Give yourself space to grieve what was stolen from you.
  • Slowly invite forgiveness in, a bit at a time, with its pauses and hesitancies.
  • Imagine the tensions in your body softening, the voices in your head quieting, your feelings bubbling up and going and evolving.
  • Believe in a newness that is already here and still coming into form.

When you do the brave, loving work, God is at work with you.

CBG: #25

April 14, 2020 — Leave a comment

Then he said to me, “Son of man, these bones are the whole house of Israel. Behold, they say, ‘Our bones are dried up, and our hope is lost; we are indeed cut off.’ Therefore, prophesy, and say to them, Thus says the Lord God: Behold, “I will open your graves and raise you from your graves, O my people. And I will put my Spirit within you, and you shall live, and I will place you in your own land. Then you shall know that I am the Lord; I have spoken, and I will do it, declares the Lord.

Ezekiel 37:11-14

What do we need of God’s promises? Renewal and restoration? To come up for breath from the exhaustion and the uncertainty. To feel the lightness of new mercies and bright morning hope. To see that rainbow over New York City and declare, that is for me as well. Intimacy? To release the heaviness of loneliness and a need for survival. To not fall prey to the lies that I can only do what I do with my gift of singleness so I guess I should be content…To still believe that being seen, understood and held are good, good desires. Belonging and purpose? To quiet the restlessness and stand confidently exactly where you are. To not feel like a waste of space because we are wrapped up in the world’s measurements. To know that what you do for the least of these, you do for God.

What part of your soul do you need God to prophesy over? What promises and reminders do your part of the world need? God has really promised. He proved it. He will not walk back on his words.

Prayer: God you have new mercies for me every minute. Help that truth to shape the way I am brave and generous to those around me. Help me to see your work all around me. Help me to extend new mercies to things and to people around me.

Creative: Write a bunch of lies and heavy things on paper and rip it up.

Brave: Live in your power.

Generous: Live out your abundance.

CBG: Easter

April 12, 2020 — 1 Comment

But on the first day of the week, at early dawn, [the women] went to the tomb, taking the spices they had prepared. And they found the stone rolled away from the tomb, but when they went in they did not find the body of the Lord Jesus. While they were perplexed about this, behold, two men stood by them in dazzling apparel. And as they were frightened and bowed their faces to the ground, the men said to them, “Why do you seek the living among the dead? He is not here, but has risen. Remember, how he told you, while he was still in Galilee, that the Son of Man must be delivered into the hands of sinful men and be crucified and on the third day rise.

Luke 24:1-7

Just like how quickly sorrow can overtake our lives, hope, too can upend it. Hope and rebirth, resurrection and wholeness violate our unbelief and forgetfulness. Welcome this intrusion! Let the dazzling newness and unimaginable truth overcome you. Fall to your knees. Come to your feet standing on the solidest of grounds, to again, walk on the renewed path that your name is written on.

  1. How have you engaged with heartbreak, pain or suffering?
  2. How have you embraced joy?
  3. How are you uniquely made for this time?
  4. How have people shown up for you?
  5. How have you shown up for others?
  6. What reminder can you take with you into this coming week?

Oh may we celebrate and rejoice as much as we mourn and hurt! Jesus is risen and that means the sun always rises, that we are not alone, never was and never will be. Love you.

CBG COVID Challenge: #6

March 26, 2020 — Leave a comment

I appeal to you therefore, brothers by the mercies of God, to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is your spiritual worship. Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.

Romans 12:1-2

For most of us (I’m hoping), we are staying put and doing what’s necessary to flatten the curve, not overwhelm our healthcare system and protect the most vulnerable (and ourselves) by doing less. It was an abrupt stop to the natural American rhythms of doing too much, staying busy and being everywhere at once. It was difficult. It was a sharp nose dive into a different pace and culture. We were forced into a kind of sabbath, maybe at first physically then if lucky, emotionally, mentally. Questions of life priorities, of what matters most, of what we truly need as human beings emerged. Maybe stillness popped in. Maybe a new normal or, an openness to a new way is starting to set in.

Then BAM. The challenges arrived. Post this. Inspire us! Make a video. Tag 5 friends. Post a picture. Tag 8 friends. Virtual FOMO anyone? Why didn’t I get that challenge invite? Everyone’s doing it. The need to make “quality content” seeps in. I spent 2 hours yesterday afternoon trying to tape a 1.5 minute monologue. Silly, silly, F.

The intentions of these challenges are probably well-meaning. However as more of these pop up and fill our minds and schedules, are they sneaky ways for the old way of life to wreck our new normal? Are we trying to fit in the former ways of doing too much and competition into this potentially new way of simplicity and enough-ness? Are we adapting to a new way or allowing old ways to dictate how to experience the now? How do we stay motivated without participating in another form of frenzy? What renewals and revelations did you initially experience that are fighting the conformity of the world?

Prayer: God remind me what a YOLO spirit-led life feels and looks like. Show me what I can let go and not participate in. Show me what discomforts I can grow in. Renew me. Refresh me.

Creative: Do something you loved when you were a kid.

Brave: Draw a boundary with something, somewhere or someone.

Generous: Who needs your patience today?